that's not quite true. The Divine Miss C remembered. but it feels like she was the only one. I asked B on Monday if I could stay at his place last night so I could go to a group for gay Christians. I also suggested a Wine Time afterwards. Yesterday while I was killing time between the end of uni and the group, Ben came home, and when I asked about the Wine Time, he said he "forgot" and was going to stay at his bf's place. How hard is it to remember for one frigging day?!?! I mean seriously. And it's not like the bf isn't invited to wine times. So that was bugging me.
Then I went to my gay Christians group. This is usually a really recharging experience, and I rarely go away feeling worse than when I arrive. But last night was one of those nights. Right on the heels of being forgotten by B, I got basically ignored by the group. Now, I'm sure that it wasn't intentional, but it hurts nonetheless. To explain: The group I go to is basically a support group for GLBTI people and their friends/family/supporters with a bit of a Christian focus. Each meeting we have a little bit of a devotional thingy and an opening prayer, and then we go around the group talking about how our month was. Mine has been a bit crappy, a bit hectic, a bit up and down, and just generally exhausting. We had a quasi-new member this week, (a number of the group had met him before and knew him for his efforts in GLBTI reconciliation in his local area) and we got him to talk to us about his life and his locale. then we went around the table. I was sitting next to the newbie, and the guy on the other side of me started talking about his month. They got right around the table to the girl sitting next to Newbie, and then just broke off and started talking amongst themselves. I said in a clear, loud voice, to no-one and everyone in particular "My month has been exhausting!" and one person said, the third time I said it, "I don't think they've noticed, so just tell me" This was quite sweet, and I must send an email to the guy thanking him, but it highlighted that no-one else had noticed at all. I live the furthest away out of the whole (regular) group (the newbie was from further away) and going to the group impacts 2 days out of my week. (I stay in town, which involves all the inconveniences that staying somewhere not-your-home entail) Not to mention the fact taht I worked extra-hard so I'd have time to go to it. I'm left wondering if I should send an email to those present. On any other day, or for any other month, I'd probably be fine. but that day, the month just gone, I needed to have my spill, and it hurt that they didn't even notice that I didn't get a chance.